After Tuesday, I believed that my relationship with Anna was over, barring a miracle. At the same time, both of us are struggling with being apart:
Well the one thing i never thought would happen happend. Its over. And all ive done since he left my porch is cry. I dont let anyone see and i act ok, like nothin is wrong. But inside i feel dead. I want so bad to call him hear his voice. Just say i love you one more time. I miss his touch. His gental way. I cant eat. I dont sleep. I love him deeper than words can say but i cant have him. This hurts so horribly. I wish it never ended! All i can say now is “Jesus take the wheel. Take it from my hands. I cant do this on my own. Im letting go gimme one more chance save me from this road im on. Jesus take the wheel.” *carrie underwood* i know ill get through this beacause with God all things are possible. But for now i hurt.
Well, I just might get my miracle after all. We’re praying, and seeking God’s direction. I still love her. I think I will always love her, no matter what happens. I want us to be together, but only if we are in God’s will. And I’m willing to wait as long as it takes for both of us to be sure.
Please keep praying…